Geez I never thought updating a blog could be such hard work. Its almost 4 months since i last posted anything here. Its not that i had nothing to say, but actually mouthfuls. Recording could have been a better option since i talk faster than i can type.
My last post started well and welle ... i still say Thank you God for the women in my lifetime. You are vessels of honour and forever i will uphold you in my prayers. But this one post, hopefully is a summary of recent activities in my life for the period i have been quiet.
Hamba Kwanele Manje is a track by songbird Lira that im feeling so much right now. For me its not about discarding a failed love but discarding all the things that have held me back this year from achieving a few goals, some failures and hard feelings. A few quick lessons that i have learnt is that no matter what the situation, my Lord is still there for me and sometimes its ok to b selfish and put yoself first. But in all things LOOK UP TO HIM FOR EVERYTHING and dont forget to thank Him for the little things in life, like the innocent laugh/cry of a baby, the beautiful blueness of the sky, the fresh smell of air at dawn nor the full bloom of summer .
In the time that i had gone awol i have been lucky to meet so many pple, observe and learn so much. Its so easy to get caught in the business of everyday life bcos of wats happening around you. I'm glad that through it all i remain me only better in wisdom and insight. People come into our lives for different purposes. You are blessed if you can identify that at any given time, a person has served their purpose in yo life and u need to let go of them. For better or worse. Just don't loose the life lessons they brought. In this short time i stand in awe of the women in particular i have met. From the gals that i interned with, to those with mo experience in this world. (By now u must know im for women and i find my inspiration in them). Surely goodness and mercy shall follow you all the days of yo lives.
My year in retrospect has been a motswako of different flavours and almost every wara wara you can think of. After so many yrs being a student , i took a break from academic studies and i really think it was one good decision i made. I have been reminiscing about my childhood, the dreams i had, i still have and just living in the moment. It made me rekindle so much, so many beautiful memories, connect me to my deeper soul. I couldn't be mo thankful for the insight i have . And all the blessings i have ... .
Im counting down to my birthday, a few days into the new year and so im turning 25 in style. Im letting go of all the toxins that have been draining me. Its a new page. So help me God.
From my heart to yours
im out
About Me
- rhee-ne
- Midrand, South Africa
- Im just me, I love life. I love the challenges each day brings. I think of myself as young, black and powerful. I am all woman, every woman. An unpolished diamond. Untapped potential!!
Dont you know you always be the most beautiful woman i know. Somebody said this to yours trully and there i was thinking its another shady pickup line. Lately i hv bn questioning myself what that meant and after so many mouthfuls btwn my gals and i , we decided what constitutes a woman's beauty. and in light of womens month , this goes out to all e beautiful women in my lifetym.
Before i delve deeper let me put emphasis that this article is not meant to demean any woman out there but simply celebrate the many roles God granted to women. There is reference in a song i like that goes 'you are all the woman in the world'.
Im short on words and wd like to research mo ...
To be continued...
Before i delve deeper let me put emphasis that this article is not meant to demean any woman out there but simply celebrate the many roles God granted to women. There is reference in a song i like that goes 'you are all the woman in the world'.
Im short on words and wd like to research mo ...
To be continued...
Priorities.
Today is simply one of those days for me. This weekend has been busy, im exhausted and could do with a full 8hr sleep, something i havent done in a while and badly in need of. Its one of those days when i would so love to be home and b receiving end of sm serious tlc. See my mother understands me a lot, and in times like this she is mo than i can eva ask for... .
I have been thinking abt my next blog since the las one which was bit confused i must add on. The pas days hv bn hectic, smtimes i feel like a need to slow down and take a chill pill. Like now i shd be in bed but me being me , im here. I had taken the decision to blog abt women and all and now i don even have a single thingy to say.
A status update on fb read 'Neva make someone a priority in your life when you are an option in theirs' . This hit me hard bcos i realized i so identified with it. Since then, my soul searching exercise has yielded sm positives im in awe of , strengths which i ddnt know i had, i jus have to keep going and pray to my Maker that all will b well. This ddnt apply only to persons but also to everyday living, the things we do, if they add value to our lives, if they take us to our destiny. A desstiny that lies within your grasp. I figure the smartest thing anyone can do is to respect themselves, respect their values and know their priorities which leads me to the title i have given this blog.
Im getting my priorities right, my dreams alive. To this i commit myself.
I know not what the future holds but i know who holds the key.
Watch out for my pic essay.Coming soon.
Im out
Change is the only constant in life
Each and everyday i take a moment of introspection jus to remind myself of where i am, where im headed and keep my dreams alive. I do not set aside a scheduled time, it happens without me really being conscious of it. People who dont dream dont have much so its good to want smthing out of life. If you can believe it , you can achieve it.
Its been years since i completed high school. In my hey days I would picture myself in the future. I must say that my present life is trully a fulfilment and reflection of my dreams earlier on. It is really true that we ought to be careful of what we ask for, bcos we might just get it. I have always aspired to live a life of self fulfilment. Im not there yet, but definitely on the road to greatness.
There are situations in my life when i have asked myself if i can ever survive the circumstances. Being a woman in this day is so challenging. (I would like to believe though that it was the same for women in past generations.)What i fail to understand is y as a people, we are most afraid of change. Think of all the aspects of yo life that are undergoing change . It happens by the second.
Just letting this thought sink in makes me more afraid. Im yet to learn the art of living without fear (of anything). So many times we compromise our lives bcos of some fear - But recent events in everyday life have made me realize that whatever you going thru, you must be honest with yoself, follow your heart and pray. Im amazed at how much you grow when you tackle change headon. Its left me strong willed and wanting more of life.
"Change " has taught me that challenges are there to test how bad yu want smthing, make you stronger and ultimately achieve watever you set out to do. Reading a particular blog from Destiny Connect, the underlying factor is that we all going thru some change.
Change is indeed the only constant in life , we might as well get used to it. Reshape the meaning of any situ into a positive.
Its been years since i completed high school. In my hey days I would picture myself in the future. I must say that my present life is trully a fulfilment and reflection of my dreams earlier on. It is really true that we ought to be careful of what we ask for, bcos we might just get it. I have always aspired to live a life of self fulfilment. Im not there yet, but definitely on the road to greatness.
There are situations in my life when i have asked myself if i can ever survive the circumstances. Being a woman in this day is so challenging. (I would like to believe though that it was the same for women in past generations.)What i fail to understand is y as a people, we are most afraid of change. Think of all the aspects of yo life that are undergoing change . It happens by the second.
Just letting this thought sink in makes me more afraid. Im yet to learn the art of living without fear (of anything). So many times we compromise our lives bcos of some fear - But recent events in everyday life have made me realize that whatever you going thru, you must be honest with yoself, follow your heart and pray. Im amazed at how much you grow when you tackle change headon. Its left me strong willed and wanting more of life.
"Change " has taught me that challenges are there to test how bad yu want smthing, make you stronger and ultimately achieve watever you set out to do. Reading a particular blog from Destiny Connect, the underlying factor is that we all going thru some change.
Change is indeed the only constant in life , we might as well get used to it. Reshape the meaning of any situ into a positive.
As i write this, im listening to Musiqsol child's Teach me... . My parting shot for this entry is Im asking God to teach me how to love, how to be a better person. Just show me the way to surrender my all .
Cheers and be inspired.
the Love in my early years
My mind is taking back into time. I grew up koBulawayo in a township that goes by the name of eLobengula Extension. Growing up emawesi is preety smthing- contributing to so much of who i am and believe me its really smthing.
The earliest childhood memory i have is being this skinny preety beautiful dark child. I rememba my kindergarten years so well - being so carefree and loving life so so much. I still yearn for those days ecreche yasePelandaba where we wd hv hot soup on a cold winter morning embroiled in warm blanket. Sunday mornings all dressed up to go to church - in yo sunday best and the luncheons that followed. My little footprints in our garden which always got me in trouble for walking over the flowers. I still can hear uradio 3 on a saturday morning being played so loud. i guess thats where the love of music began. Barely at the age 0f 8 therabout i knew abt bob marley, soul bros, the rnb classics, UB40, billy ocean....i can go on and on. I have this jersey which i outgrew i think when i was 4ish therabt thats a reminder of those yrs. A little gal is goin 2 hv sm day, to cherish it like i did.
The most beautiful thing about my years as a child is that i knew i was loved. I was raised by a widowed mother with a very large extended family asidee - my greatest influence however is my grandmama. God i love this woman. Never in this lifetime have i known a woman so humble and selfless as her. She is not only my mother's mum but ugrand lomama!! Wheneva and everytym i pray the first words that come out is thank you Lord for my mum, grandma.... .This is the woman who instilled in me a caring and loving heart, her deeds foreva inscribed on the tablet of my heart (to be my value system). A woman whose faith has taught me that when all fails , God is there and he is only a prayer away
I think in life the most important gift yu can eva pass on is love. Especially the early years of childhood. No amnt of material possessions can eva replace the love u can instil in a child. And that kind of love comes in simply ways - helping out with little things - giving them the attention... . its smthing i want to live for - to pass the love to my own angels some day.
The memory of my childhood would not b complete if i do not mention a family tradition of reading any literature. I don know maybe its bcos i was born into it, i can neva go a day without reading sm literature of any kind, from magazines , newspapers and recently blogs and all. I loved my skool days, i don think i have outgrown them really. It opens you up to learn something new evryday.
And now in my early adulthood life is so different . My priorities realigned. After yrs of skool and all, im at a point in my life where im finding myself. This journey neva ends. The same things define me. I still love life with all the joys and tribulations that come with it.
The earliest childhood memory i have is being this skinny preety beautiful dark child. I rememba my kindergarten years so well - being so carefree and loving life so so much. I still yearn for those days ecreche yasePelandaba where we wd hv hot soup on a cold winter morning embroiled in warm blanket. Sunday mornings all dressed up to go to church - in yo sunday best and the luncheons that followed. My little footprints in our garden which always got me in trouble for walking over the flowers. I still can hear uradio 3 on a saturday morning being played so loud. i guess thats where the love of music began. Barely at the age 0f 8 therabout i knew abt bob marley, soul bros, the rnb classics, UB40, billy ocean....i can go on and on. I have this jersey which i outgrew i think when i was 4ish therabt thats a reminder of those yrs. A little gal is goin 2 hv sm day, to cherish it like i did.
The most beautiful thing about my years as a child is that i knew i was loved. I was raised by a widowed mother with a very large extended family asidee - my greatest influence however is my grandmama. God i love this woman. Never in this lifetime have i known a woman so humble and selfless as her. She is not only my mother's mum but ugrand lomama!! Wheneva and everytym i pray the first words that come out is thank you Lord for my mum, grandma.... .This is the woman who instilled in me a caring and loving heart, her deeds foreva inscribed on the tablet of my heart (to be my value system). A woman whose faith has taught me that when all fails , God is there and he is only a prayer away
I think in life the most important gift yu can eva pass on is love. Especially the early years of childhood. No amnt of material possessions can eva replace the love u can instil in a child. And that kind of love comes in simply ways - helping out with little things - giving them the attention... . its smthing i want to live for - to pass the love to my own angels some day.
The memory of my childhood would not b complete if i do not mention a family tradition of reading any literature. I don know maybe its bcos i was born into it, i can neva go a day without reading sm literature of any kind, from magazines , newspapers and recently blogs and all. I loved my skool days, i don think i have outgrown them really. It opens you up to learn something new evryday.
And now in my early adulthood life is so different . My priorities realigned. After yrs of skool and all, im at a point in my life where im finding myself. This journey neva ends. The same things define me. I still love life with all the joys and tribulations that come with it.
After a year of inactivity on this space, out of the blue i had smthing to write. Y now i ask myself- This blog is a direct transfer of the emotions held so long inside n now poured out into a little gratitude journal i have. So much for being me. Hope it inspires you to cherish memories from the past and be grateful for the present.
200mine is almost gone - not much happening but i live to see anotha day.
cheers and mcwaahhhh
An Intro!!!
I gotta thank my God for everything i am and more. Life could be better even now. This has been one year of the good and the not so good and im still standing
Despite my shortcomings im still Rennie. I think of my mum, brother , grandma and the family at large and i realizze how blessed i am. You don hv to own the world to know you are blessed: I look at the beauty of a simply flower , i realize how far i have come and noo im not stopping.
I thank God again for those who did not believe in me bcoz they hv given me the urge to succeed even more. My mother says they are pleading before God to take me to better places.
One of my greatest loves is music. Im so much of a music person, i wish i could sing as well. Music is to me what food is to the soul. I find myself identifying with the message. An expression of my silent emotions. However there is more to me than this space can fill.
till next tym
mcwahhh
Despite my shortcomings im still Rennie. I think of my mum, brother , grandma and the family at large and i realizze how blessed i am. You don hv to own the world to know you are blessed: I look at the beauty of a simply flower , i realize how far i have come and noo im not stopping.
I thank God again for those who did not believe in me bcoz they hv given me the urge to succeed even more. My mother says they are pleading before God to take me to better places.
One of my greatest loves is music. Im so much of a music person, i wish i could sing as well. Music is to me what food is to the soul. I find myself identifying with the message. An expression of my silent emotions. However there is more to me than this space can fill.
till next tym
mcwahhh
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